In an attempt to escape the my paralyzing fear of failure as a writer, in 2017 I "decided" to just write 20 essays. No attempt to integrate. No attempt to narrate. No attempt a structure. An attempt to remove the barriers to getting something onto paper. I figured that was a fist step. Maybe not efficient but more effective than writing nothing. Maybe structure would emerge. Maybe Humpty Dumpty could be put together.
In 2017 I took a six week adult writing course three time consecutively and that made writing easy--I no longer had an excuse not to write. So I accumulated a bunch of pieces then and a lot more since meeting Ward Cunningham and the federated wiki platform.
So... lets see what happens now, here. As some folks remind us, "sense-making is retrospective." Maybe, over time the pieces of Humpty Dumpty can be brought together, enough to be recognize.